Saturday, April 11, 2015

it goes on

i never wanted to hide myself or tried to stay fine for the sake of my ego
im simply not good at talking things out 
i feel things and feelings arent made of words they are invisible, fragile and fade.
how do i tell you all about it
is it virgo or is it some of you get emotional, lost and jump yourself into an extremely worse conclusion sometimes? I did it all the time but lately i started to realise it I wish I controlled it but I didnt. I still acted the same. Thousands thoughts still came across my mind after someone did something 'not as good as i assumed' to me or the attitude of a stranger. It got me so tired. The battle of 'be kind' vs 'fuck it' fights every single day; morning until night; whatever situation it is. Maybe i should see the doctor or i simply need a lover. Someone told me if you pass it through all, its gonna be forever, dont give up. But baby it hurts so bad. One more barrier is here, coming near to my face, the emptiness got a little stronger, soul aches a little bit more every time my mind counts it down uncontrollably. Baby, it hurts so much. I might act weird, I might do crazy things, I might leave all because I want to look ok. Baby it hurts. 


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