Friday, May 29, 2015

To May 2016

Gone through whats written in the post from Its the soul that needs the surgery - pretty hurts by beyonce at college.

I had that written in May 2014. For some reasons, I was reading them old posts words by words and i guess its time to give myself an answer in return to the letter. Except sister has started her cooking class here, the rest of it did not happen i guess.. im graduating in half year time its the happiest thing ever i think i hate school. I study for the sake to get self satisfaction not for the sake to get a cert lol im serious..

and I wasn't in a relationship in 2014 May but yes im now in and its gonna the 'trendy' ldr soon.... that kind of love that brings strong mental and heart connection but not the physical that kind ....

- - - counting down 38 days - - -

[ To May 2016 ]

Graduated after 5 months. Thinking about new room design for the coziest! Came back from aus to visit the boyfriend. Going for work every weekdays and helping out the house as usual. Hearts got fonder and grown up a lil bit bcs im alone now. We gotta wish for the best for our loved one. Doing the right things last. I want us to last. Feeling grateful for such a keeper never stops putting effort to let me know that he needs ..to feed me... hmm and yes, still, I send the family cakes constantly-- to see them all fine.

Started seeing them old friends too,, had some great time and hitting gym has become a big part of my daily routine. Feeling a lil surprised to have stuck with this lifestyle. It's healthy, u know, really... Body, health, soul and mind must be taken care wisely.. for a compassionate life and to reach equanimity. There's a lot more to learn.





Faith x trust + determination


Friday, May 8, 2015

tolerance

Had a sensitive talk with sister during a night drive..

She brought up the word 'tolerance' that i was undeniably threatened by it. I believed most of the unhappiness I ever felt might simply be caused by the fact that i had almost zero knowledge about 'tolerance'.

I took it as the way of my life.  I never felt wrong at all cz they satisfied me most of the time. Things that ever required 'tolerating' will immediately be eliminated.

Now Im feeling sorry because I had never learnt tolerating. I just took up the lesson half an hour ago. Give me some time to practise. I didnt know people could tolerate to smooth things up. Bitter-smiling while writing.. what have i been doing all my life??
After 21 years finally someone who's so much younger than me taught me such lesson called 'tolerance'.

I guess there's still a lot more to catch up with honest people who are willing to educate me more. The real education is priceless. I gotta work things out.

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