The indian uncle blocked my car, walked towards me in a sense that he would have killed me. He opened up my door and scolded me some vulgarities and a lot more of excuses which indicate that i might have killed him and his mother driven by him in the car due to my carelessness while driving. In my deep heart core, I wanna say sorry. I apologized but I know I wasnt sincere at all I was just afraid of a huge guy who had guts to block my way and any other road users' way, caused the traffic to turn heavy due to his own business. He was just to throw his anger to me, it might be really a small portion of the reason that he cares about his mom but that was not the right way. I dont feel sorry anymore because of your attitude. Violence. Who are the people who can feel absolutely cool at all when people throw you shit. I do really wish I was and am as fine as I looked like. It hurts so bad. Met so many unpleasant cases since the beginning of the year. What is going on with me. Apart from that, I tap on his name on my phone I wanted to call him and tell him whats wrong and I needed help. I need a shoulder I want a hug. Im just a girl how strong do you expect me to be? How hard for a girl to stay faithful, take care of herself, keep on waiting, do every single thing to make sure she is independent enough and to get you back? We said we will get married, we said we will start our own family. That could be us but you dont love me. I was the one you needed but now you're gone, im done.
you: "call me when you have any emergency or anything"
you: "why would you call me for such a small case.. *call ended*"
you: dont find me anymore"
Now we dont talk anymore we are not friends we cant even be strangers to each others, we can only be invisible. So right now, all i can say is goodbye.
Cest la vie!
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